Just a little excerpt from a blog post I wrote about a year ago...
We've reached the final year of our 3-year posting, and up until recently, I've felt as though, "The Countdown is On!" Officially, we have only 8 months (and 14 days...but who's counting?) left on our posting...which, with all the technicalities, will work out to be about 1 year and 5-ish months. I've looking forward to the coming months since the day I left my home in NB, knowing how excited I would be to someday return and be close to my family again... And until recently, what got me through being so far away from them all was my Mental Countdown: "Just 2 and 1/2 more years.".... "Just 18 more months." .... "Next Year".
So what do I do now that, "Next Year" might end up being, "2013"...
Isn't it funny how easy it is to calmly say that, "God's in Control", when deep down we actually feel like we are? Maybe it's only me who suffers from, "Let Me Do It My Way!!" syndrome...but somehow I doubt it.
When I firmly believed that the only place we would be considering for our next posting was closer to home, I had no problem smiling and reassuring myself that my God would work it all out according to His plan for us. Maybe because I believed He would work it out the way I thought it should work out? Now that we're looking at other options, one's that are not my first choice, I'm finding it so much harder to TRUST. ( full post here)
I wrote that post almost a year ago, when we hadn't yet decided where to request for our next post. In my mind, the choice was something like this: go closer to families (yay!), and further away (boooo.) Of course, along with "further away" posts come different incentives...namely, a quicker way to pay off our student loans! So here we are, a full year later, "our" decision made. We requested Nain, Labrador- a two year IP in northern Labrador; a coastal, fly-in only community with a population of 1200; the most Northern policed community in NL & Lab. We found out in November that we were likely going to get our first choice, and in January, J received notice that we're indeed headed to Nain! Since then, we've been able to do lots of really fun things like medical and dental clearances, and psychological evaluations. I've been making detailed lists that could rival Rory Gilmore, making note of all the food and supplies we're going to need to bring for around six months at a time. It's been fun, and exciting, and pretty darn intimidating.
You know how sometimes you make a decision, and then question whether it's the right one (ME? Neeeever......lol) ? That didn't happen with our decision to go to Nain. Soon after we got our notice, I was able to "Facebook" meet two other women who's husband's are also being posted to Nain this summer. Awesome women, who I already can tell I have so much in common with. We also recently found out that the Christian church in Nain has new leadership starting this summer, and that there's going to be a mission team from St. John's heading to Nain next August as part of a Province-wide mission outreach! My two biggest fears were going to a place where I'd have no friends, and no church: God's taken care of both issues, and we haven't even moved yet.
"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine...to Him be glory, now and for ever"
- Ephesians 3:20